I don't want to

Because I think too much about EVERYTHING, this article struck a note with me.

This is a short excerpt from a longer story, its related to tri training, but easily applies to running that I am doing now.

"Sure I kept telling myself that I didn't want to swim, but every single action that I undertook this morning pointed to the single premise that I did, in fact, want to swim. I didn't think I wanted to swim, but apparently I was wrong."

It's a good read at http://www.trifuel.com/training/endurance-files/you-either-do-or-you-dont-trying-doesnt-count

I find myself in this situation often, on my out and back loops from home. "I don't want to" but somehow I am. Yeah I am a bit insane :)